I've had some wonderful times on the site thanks to some of my closest pals (namely Ino Faust, Linkyshinks, as well as ZeroSimon and IceWolf who generously traded me some lovely Pokemon.) But I feel that now is my time to leave. I can't take any flak from from people right now (I won't say names, but you know who you are,) because quite frankly, I've always been an overly-sensitive and fragile person, and I've been suffering with physical and mental/emotional problems for a handful of years. And I mean actual problems, not emo shit to put on display.
I haven't been able to eat or sleep lately, and I've had a throat problem for about 3 or 4 years that makes me feel very sick. I have very stubborn depression and anxiety that won't go away with pills, so I often feel suicidal/deeply unhappy or scared to death (whether there be an apparent cause or not,) and this produces and/or exacerbates my physical ailments alongside my emotional/mental status.
I guess you people saw me as either friendly or an angry bizatch (depending on if I felt I was being treated kindly by the individual.) But the truth is that I was neither; I was/am frustrated with the issues in my life, and even more so with myself as a person...but changing oneself is a daunting task which I have failed at in succeeding. C3 makes those parts of my life harder to deal with right now.
Thus, I must say farewell. I feel that it is integral to both my happiness, my final year in high school and especially my future as a game designer to step away from this pond and jump into the ocean to concentrate on my art, writing and game design, as well as filling in forum-time with more gaming time. C3 took up at least a couple of hours out of my day, but it won't take anything from me anymore. I think I hit my head on that door before when I passed out (unfortunately I deal with fainting spells, too,) so it must've "knocked some sense" into me (LAWLZ, PUN!)
I'm not sure if I'll come back to a forum anytime soon, but if I do it won't be here. I know I probably came off as a person begging for your sympathy, but I was really trying to explain why I act/acted this way on C3. By impressing people with comebacks and whatnot to mask my weaknesses with strength I thought I was doing myself a favor by trying to remind myself that I could be liked and admired by people. In truth I was only hurting myself.
I wanted to make this a bit more brief, but I said everything that mattered to me, so I'm not trying to sound like a victim, and it is not my intention to blame anybody no matter what they said to me. Thanks again to everyone who treated me with that extra bit of kindness and respect. I'll never forget you.
I'll be checking my PMs occasionally for a little while in case anyone wants my contact information so we can keep in touch outside of C3. So drop me a message if you so wish.
I'm leaving for a three-day trip to Rhode Island, so I won't be around for a while. I'm sure some of you will be happy to see me leave.
Anyway, I'll be glad to get away from all this chaos, especially when people are jumping on Ino_Faust and me for "getting rid of Oni" when in reality quite a few people I knew didn't like how he was acting. I tolerated him and argued back when I felt the need to defend myself, but I wasn't the cause of his ban. The mods made the final decision, and many people now feel more at peace due to it.
If anyone wants to contact me, they can PM me or reply to this blog which I will be reading in a few days. Thank you to everyone who ever respected/defended me. As for those of you who were nasty, like the user who defiled my avatar (I won't use names,) have fun at that new site. I'm sure it'll be a better place for you and your shenanigans.
I just found out that I'm going to Newport during the second week of August, and I'm ecstatic since I haven't been on a vacation in around 6 years! When I'm not on the beach or whatever, I'll probably be chilling out in the hotel room during downtime to play some DS games. I considered bringing my Wii, but I think it'd be a bit too much of a hassle to move all the equipment, and it's not a long enough trip to really bother with it. I'm definitely going to bring my DS, though. The problem is that I haven't gotten a new DS game in ages, and I'd really appreciate some recommendations from my fellow Nintendo fans.
My basic tastes: I typically don't like RPGs (not including the awesomeness that is Pokemon, which I already beat.) My favorite genre is action/adventure. I'll be 17 in August, so I don't care about the rating of the game, and neither would my parental units. I'm staying for about 3 days, so it should last around that amount of time.
The games I already have: Metroid Prime Hunters: First Hunt (demo,) Super Mario 64 DS, Kirby Canvas Curse, Mario Hoops 3 on 3, Mario Kart DS, Mario & Luigi: Partners in Time, Mario vs. Donkey Kong 2: March of the Minis, Metroid Prime Hunters, New Super Mario Bros., Pokemon Pearl, Sonic Rush, and Star Fox Command.
Thanks in advance.
Alright, I'm still fairly new to this site, but I'm getting pissed off at some of you guys who can't fucking respect someone's opinion or at least treat them with some amount of kindness. Someone once told me that girls on this site tend to leave, and this must be why; because boys seem to forget their fucking manners. Even though you're online, please keep in mind that some people, such as myself, would prefer you guys to tone down the rudeness. Thanks.